i have not been very active, honestly it’s basically my queue that’s been running my blog. i love you all, and i just wanted to say that life is hard right now. i am struggling, and i am trying hard to grasp onto any stable structure that surrounds me. recovery is hard, and i want nothing more in this world than to be happy and healthy, but right now i am hurting. i am still here, i just want you all to know. so much love.